Too Loud - The Beginnning

Ever fear silence? Ever realize once you turn off the music, it's louder than when you had it on? If you're my friend, family or even a simple facebook acquaintance - you know I dont sleep well. I've actually been researching this a lot lately. Even when I was young, I remember my father saying goodnight, closing my door perfectly at a knuckle width, and just laying there for hours. (Knuckle width, think about that for a quick second)... Christmas, forgheddaboudit - I'd count and get into the tens of thousands, every 10K is just shy of 3 hours - go to bed at 8 and I was HOSED! Humans cant count in exact seconds, some go faster, some slower, my average was 2:52 - dont ask why/how I know that or I'll spin on it for a few days attempting to explain... Now that I'm 40 I choose when I go to bed - kinda wish my dad would still tell me "time for bed"! at least then I could say I was in bed before 10... I'm writing this at 14:40 but it wont post until a socially acceptable time so I dont get judged! Long live the delayed post/email/text! Some call it insomnia - if there was a drug for it, I've taken it - a drink, I've guzzled it - smoke, I've smoked it - self hypnosis, I've imagined the most beautiful place ever! Problem is, it takes one thing, just one, to set my mind off... I'm going to begin chronicling most nights here, like a journal but more of a recipe to figure out why. Or for you that find this blog intriguing - I know I'm far from alone! I may not be the most humble person in the world but I can see trends in a trendless situation. This is part of my problem... Until Later! ~Jeff